SF is Dead.

This post is long overdue.

I'm not going to share a heartfelt story about "the end".. because it isn't. SF just never took off, and although I'm a little disappointed with that, I feel it may be for the better. I've continued on with other projects, and am happy to be doing so.

You can still catch me at sinsfate.net, blogging about what's happening with the music, various web projects, and life in general. Check it out?

Goodbye, Blogger..

I no longer have time to keep up with this separate Blogger journal. Maybe I'll be back in the future.. but until then, all new entries will be posted right on our website.

Thanks to everyone who has stopped in to read the beginning of our story and to those who've commented and supported us through our rough times.

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They're heeeere..

Hey guys, I'm back! (Run away!)

I know, I know.. it's been almost two months since I last updated. But now I have internet at the "new" apartment and plenty of time to keep up with everything.

So what have I been doing with my time? Working, writing, practicing, and hanging with the crew. And cleaning.. not to mention that my kitchen skills have improved greatly. I can now make hamburger helper without supervision.

We've also got a new band lineup-
vocals/keys: Raivyn
guitars: Dave
bass: Jason
drums: JR

The website isn't yet updated to include the new lineup, but check it out anyway. And add us on MySpace. You know you want to.

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I have to race like a pisshorse.

What?

Don't ask.. just don't ask.

And so here I am, sitting here in Jen's room, typing up this blog post because I don't have internet access at the apartment. I know, I know. I suck. You don't have to tell me.

She and a friend are out for part of the night and I'm here with the kids, trying to remember how I managed to take such good care of my little sister when she was still a baby. I just don't know.. I've forgotten everything. And I hate when kids cry. It makes me want to join in.

As far as the music thing goes, we're still on that mini hiatus. But my god, we still manage to come up with new stuff. There hasn't been a day when I haven't played my piano. A new song is in the works.. and there are plenty of ideas for at least three others. I love it. It controls my life.

I'm taking a little break from the ad space rental thing.. at least for the next week or so.. until I can sit down and put some time and effort into things. Time is very limited right now.

Until later.. keep your chin up, eat the mashed potatoes before they go bad, and don't take candy from strangers.

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Google words like PLUNGER and SLINKY and GIVE ME BEER..

..and see if this page comes up. You never know.

I'm moving in a few days, so I thought now would be a good time to type up this post. And no, I'm not telling you where I'm moving to.. I don't need forty-seven thousand people from the internet knocking on my door, asking if I can come out to play. Sorry, kiddies.

This is going to be quite the experience for me, considering that I've never really been out on my own.. even though I'll have a roomie. I've fallen in love with the apartment and I can't wait to add my personal touches to it. I can't take all my junk with me though. I wish I could.

Make sure you pay a visit to this week's ad space renter, Scooter McGavin's 9th Green. At first I thought it was a golf blog, but then I checked it out and found that it has a lot of cool media stuff. It's worth the visit.

Okay, guys. I've got a lot of packing and shtuff to do. Later!

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What is it with bass players?

Last night was interesting. J and I went down to Joker's Wild in Ogdensburg, PA for a show. Three bands played that night and I met a lot of cool people.

The show had a late start because the band that was originally scheduled to go first (Something Grey) had a late vocals guy, and wound up in the second position.

Kung Fu Jesus, the band that played first (in the picture) was very good. They were heavier than the other two bands and I liked their style of playing. I'd definitely go to more of their shows.

And when Agony Hill started up, just about everyone in the bar went nuts. People were pushing to the front of the stage and dancing like crazy. Despite the fact that a couple chicks were totally invading my personal space, I had a great time.

I just noticed something.. What is it with bass players? With every band I've met and talked to, it's always the bass player that I wind up chatting with the most. It's like I'm a bass man magnet or something. The top four people I've talked with last night were all bass players- Jason (my band's bass dude), Joe (Agony Hill), Yogi (Kung Fu Jesus), and Dave (Something Grey). What the hell?

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HAVE YOU SEEN MY BASEBALL?

Yes, we are odd. I know it, you know it, everyone knows it.

Even my 9-year-old sister has used our names with the word "retard" recently.

At least we're having fun.

We're taking a little break from the music right now, building our contact list and getting ready for a long, tiring stretch of practices. Everyone needs some time to goof off now and then, and now is our turn. (It's going to be a beautiful, sunny Saturday on the roof with beer and music. Yes, the roof. This is our Memorial Day weekend.)

Go visit this week's blog, A Yoga Coffee Outlook. It's a fairly popular blog and I enjoy reading it.

So what's on my agenda for today? Well, I've got to dye my hair again.. I've got about an inch of light blonde roots because I've been far too lazy to do anything about it. And I need to get some more cold medicine. I've had a sore throat and runny nose for a couple days now. It sucks. But all in all, it's going to be a pretty lazy day. I have no obligations. I'm free to be the idiot that I am.

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How about a snorkel and an avocado?

People in this town just have no sense of humor whatsoever. I cannot understand it. Maybe they don't like metal freaks.. who knows?

We're still looking for guitarists. And drummers. (My god, this is annoying the crap out of me!) But what can I do? I'm making new contacts every few days.. people in other bands. Many have offered to help us out in finding musicians, and I appreciate that, but I'm still riding that fence between composure and insanity. Or maybe I'm just impatient.

We've also been working on a couple songs that we've yet to come up with names for. They're.. interesting. I'll put it that way. I've got a crapload of ideas, but because of our lack of musicians, we can't put all of them into action.

And again with the frustration. It's one big circle.

Ever notice that life revolves around circles? Our emotions and life events can be compared to circles in one way or another. The earth is a circle. (Okay, it's a SPHERE.. but still, just work with me.) CD's are circles. Most dishware take on the form of circles. The wheels on our cars are circles. I think I have made my point.

Heptagons are completely left out of the loop. Is it weird to feel bad for them? HEPTAGONS HAVE FEELINGS, TOO!

Go check out the ad space renter- Workout4Bloggers. It has cool little exercises and plenty of health facts for lazy computer people like me.

And reading over this, I've come to the conclusion that I should not be blogging with a buzz..

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"..and so you get the full effect of my asscheeks rattling."

Thank you, Jason. I could have lived without that remark.

Okay, guys. I have a confession to make. I'm still using Christmas cookie stamps to mail out my phone bills. Why? Because I think they're cute.. Not really. I just don't do much as far as the post goes. And the way I'm going, I'll still be using those stamps next December.

On a different note, we've been working on our music and stuff. Still looking for a replacement guitarist though. Hopefully we'll find the guy soon.

That reminds me (and I don't know why!).. I have to go over to J's place and take a shower yet again today before I have to go to work in the evening. The mother shut off all the hot water in the house at the beginning of the week and only turns it on to do dishes and take a shower. Unfortunately for me, I am never home at those times and get screwed out of a hot shower. And so I have to travel ten minutes down the road with my towel, lavender body wash, clothes, and man deoderant because I don't know a thing about plumbing.

And now is the time I ask myself why I'm posting such useless information for the world to read. I don't know.. I have nothing better to write about.

Shower time.

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"Well, you can't kill a hotdog.."

We broke through our small bout of laziness yesterday.

We pulled out my newest set of lyrics (which was chewed slightly by J's dog) and WHABAM! Within an hour, we had something.. almost an entire song. How frickin' awesome is that? I'm proud of that one.

Go check out Got Lyrics!, this week's blog ad space renter. It's a great music news blog with, of course, lyrics. So YO, CHECK IT OUT, DUDE!

I've also made some major changes to the website over the past week. (Forgot to mention that one.) The entire color scheme is different, along with the main links and features.

We're also looking for a new guitarist, guys. Anyone in the Penn-York valley looking for a metal band? Send an email to band@sinsfate.net.

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"I like shaking my buckets."

I went up to Maley's in Corning on Saturday night with Jason to watch Agony Hill play, and it was a pretty cool night. I made a few new friends, danced a bit, and we may have found ourselves a replacement guitarist. Or something of that sort. I guess a couple guys from the band are going to talk to some people for us. Hopefully. It helps to know people who know lots of other people.

I'm STILL tired from that night. And today is Tuesday.

And then after a freaky event last night, I've got something big in my mind. One of those things that makes for an awesome song. I won't say what it is here, but I will say that a very twisted song may come out of it. Watch for it.

Oh yeah, make sure you check out the new ad space renter, Rocky Jay. The guy's got a thing for women's asses, but his blog IS quite entertaining. And he seems like a pretty cool guy. Good sense of humor.

So what's on the agenda today? I have to run to the bank, hit up the store for some black hair dye and plastic forks, do some writing (hopefully an entire set of lyrics), pick up the sister from school, and then I'll probably be going over to J's place for a while. Busy.

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The circle continues.

In order to survive, we must all adapt to changing situations. This is how we learn and grow. For every end, there is a new beginning. We must reach these ends and venture on in order to mature and find out who we are and where we stand in life.


I won't confirm nor deny it all
I'm sorry, so sorry
But after all this time
You failed to see me for who I am
I'm not in the right, not in the wrong
You were far too blind all along
And so we say goodbye

I never meant for my final words to sound so harsh. But I have never been one to sugarcoat things. You know this.

I wish you the best of luck on your own journey.
And ours continues.

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And the mashed potato award goes to...

J, you rock.

Anyway, it's been a LONG week. We've cut down the practices and stuff for a short while because a couple of us had our own sh*t to take care of. But we're back on it this week.. and more than we have been.

John stopped by today during his lunch break to tell me that we're having a full rehearsal on Wednesday. And possibly Thursday as well.

And we might have ourselves a drummer.. well, a decent stand-in. We've been having so many problems with attaining a good drummer with time and dedication. But (thank you, J) we may have found someone for now, even if he plays with another band.

Also, go visit the new ad space renter, Fluff. It's a cool entertainment blog with several different contributers covering tv, music, movies, celebrities, and other stuff. Go visit, I say!

Okay, guys. I've got to get cleaned up and ready to leave the house. Again.

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I'm an idiot sometimes.

Last night was somewhat eventful. We worked with my new song lyrics that I recently put together. Plenty of thoughts and ideas, but we couldn't come up with crap.

Why is it that the greatest stuff always comes at the most inconvenient times?

The best thing Jason and I came up with (later on that evening) is the idea that we're going to "Oregahno" to build a "brestesses" buffet with our bare "hanges". We're pathetic.

And this morning I proved my insanity by chasing the mailman down the road, waving my cell phone bill above my head and screaming, "Mailman dude! Wait! Come baaaack!" I needed to send out my check in time. I procrastinated a little too much this month. Oops.

We've got another band practice tonight, and we plan to get our show crap together. Last night was just writing and wasn't really even planned. I showed up at the apartment, wanting to show J my lyrics and shtuff, and as soon as I walked in, there's John at the top of the steps. So okay.. practice. Or meeting. Whatever.

Mreh. Shower time. Later.

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I am a genius!

I finished an ENTIRE set of lyrics today! Sure, I'll have to do some tweaking later on, but I FINISHED! It's been about a year since I have been able to write the words to an entire song in a day. Lately I've been writing a few lines and then saying, "Screw it!" and tossing my notebook aside. But not today.

Now I'll have to show the guys and see what they think. I really hope it goes over as well as I hope it will. (Wish me luck!)

Also, because of the list of opportunities we gained yesterday (I'm dying to spill the secret!), I've become so much more inspired and I'm willing to do just about anything to make this work.

Oh, before I forget.. That picture I included in this post is of me brushing my teeth. Yes, I'm an odd one. If you don't like it, too bad. I don't care.

Let's see... tomorrow's Thursday. I'm thinking about dropping by Jason's apartment tomorrow afternoon. There's just too much excitement built up inside of me to keep my newly finished work to myself. Hope he'll be home... (And I'll see John on Friday, so he can see it then.)

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Thoughts..

And so here I am at 8:00 in the morning, listening to Karmacode, the new Lacuna Coil cd that was released yesterday. I'm not the slightest bit disappointed. Their style has changed a little since their last release (Comalies came out in 2002, I think), and I really like it.

Go check out the new ad space renter- Am I Famous Now? The author is more straight-forward and sarcastic than I am.. that makes for some interesting posts. I really enjoy reading it.

As for the music thing, the sources and ideas are growing. There are just a few rough patches that we really need to smooth out (I can't say what they are here). I had a very long conversation with Jason last night about it all. It's like I'm talking to a male version of myself. F***ing awesome. We're totally on the same page and our way of thinking is very, very similar.. only he's the more business knowledgeable one and I'm the uber artistic one. Definitely a great match. We're putting our stuff together, and hopefully something good will become of this. If we can get over this one hill, we'll be in the clear for a good while. I hope we can do it.

I plan to do some writing today. There's so much I want to write about, but the hard part is putting it all into words. I want to have a great single perfected within the next month or so.

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I am exhausted.

It was a long weekend.

We played a lot over the past couple days. It doesn't sound all that exhausting, but believe me, IT IS.

We did a little writing, too. But most of our time was spent on getting some covers going right. We have our "big four" and then a few others.. and now some new ones we're working on, including stuff by Linkin Park, Korn, and a few other bands. It's going well for the most part.

To be honest, I'm not all that big on the whole cover thing, but it has to be done. Clubs around here aren't looking for originals.. maybe one or two thrown into a set of covers, if that.. They want music that people know and like.

On Saturday afternoon, we had a public practice over at the coffee shop. It wasn't going all too well, I thought. We weren't sounding like we usually do. But some guy (the only person who was sitting in there) tipped us a dollar. When we were done, the girl working at the counter told us of our small fortune. We just kind of stood there like, "Dude, what just happened?" and then a few minutes later, "We got paid for practicing. Sweet." So we must be good if our screwups and shoddy playing earned us a dollar.. Maybe?

The blog advertising space is open again. You've got half a day to apply. When I sign on again this evening to check on the website, I'm going to make my decision. So if you want your blog listed here for a week, you might want to get on it very soon.

Anyway, I've got lots of shtuff to do, so I'm out.

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Running out of ideas..? For covers, we are.

Okay, guys! We're taking requests for songs to play out during our shows. There are so many to choose from, but we need to know what you want to hear.

We've got a good few covers lined up, including "Heart-Shaped Box" by Nirvana, "Aerials" by System of a Down, and "Whisper" by Evanescence. They're going along pretty well, and we've got a few extra tricks up our sleeves..

And.. WE'RE STILL LOOKING FOR A FREAKIN' DRUMMER! The "Drummer wanted! (Inquire within.)" thing I wrote on Jason's arm in permanent marker didn't exactly do the trick. Nor did asking random people who looked like drummers.. they were guitarists and bass players. Mreh.

If you're living in or around "the valley" and can hit 'em, send some info to band@sinsfate.net and we'll get back to you asap. Thanks.

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A quick update.

I've got a long day ahead of me, so I'm going to make this post quick and straight to the point.

It's a new week and we've got a new blog renter. Check it out. I had to make no decision when choosing between blogs. This one is just effing amusing- Useless Advice From Useless Men. I could probably read it all day if I had the time.

The music's been a little slow this past week, but all's going well. We're making some good plans and I came up with some good ideas while practicing on my own yesterday. Let's see if I can remember them when I meet up with the guys.

But as for now, I need to get my arse up and ready to get out of the house.

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Welcome the new bassist!

We've FINALLY found ourselves a full time bassist with drive and dedication!

Welcome Jason Amey (the bass tech for Agony Hill) to the group. This guy is such a blessing to us, it's unbelievable. He's so helpful and inspired, though a little bit of a hardass (which is exactly what we need), and has great ideas. Not to mention the resources that come along with the package. It's f*cking great.

I have a feeling that we're going to take off even quicker than planned.. It's so exciting.

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